The thoughts at hand

So this situation with Mum looks like coming to a head and it's been weighing on my mind for the last week or two. She's aware that I'm presently involved with a boy (i.e. Darren) and has for some time now. I've felt something simmering on the back burner for about that same time. This is the first boy-boy relationship of mine that she's ever known anything about and I'm not sure how she'll react. I'm guessing that it'd be the same as with the coming-out: displeasure, disappointment, possibly with a twist of disgust (I'm getting over the disgust part - it still hurts but I think I can look beyond it. And I hope that she can too).

I suppose the situation could have been better if I'd been more open. I mean, just with the small things, like letting the family know that I'd be home a little late or if I'd be staying over at someone's house instead of being cagey about everything. I wouldn't be surprised if Mum is a little distrusting of it all.

I want her to know that it's all good, you know? I want her to know that this involvement is, for want of a better term, [somewhat] innocent and wholesome. I want her to know that she can trust me.


The weekend past

I saw Raise Your Voice on Saturday with spunky Darren and stayed over at his place again. It wasn't all that good - the movie that is. The only redeeming feature was Oliver James, really. Staying over was good though, despite being rudely awoken at about 4am. It wasn't as bad as It could've been - it was only one of Darren's room mates coming home (possibly with girl in tow) and playing good music at full volume. I think I even caught myself quietly singing along.

Also, last night I saw The Incredibles with Mattymoo. Quite the gentleman, he is. Sometimes I reckon that it's a shame that he's just a mate instead of something else. Only sometimes, mind you. Anyway, he's special guy and I'm glad he's one of my bestest buds.


Listening to:
Title: Blacken My Thumb
Artist: The Datsuns
Album/station: Outta Sight/Outta Mind
Length: 2.46